Tues

had a raspberry cheesecake cookie from subway last night.  which was much better than the giant cupcake that one of the student workers gave me.  it had choc frosting on it and was so tempting!  so i gave it to jeremy and he gave me a cookie he had gotten for dinner.

this morning i ate a cereal bar (120 cals) , a fun size bag of skittles (60 cals), and 1/2 of a Fridays Skillet Meal Shrimp Stirfry (300 cals).

J and I also went running. I ran for 25 min. doing run 4, walk 1.

tonight though is going to be interesting.  a former principal now has a cooking business as a hobby.  She sends out menus and you tell her which ones you want and give her a "donation".  Tonights menu is breakfast casserole, hashbrowns, fruit, and strawberry bread (like banana bread but with strawberries, yum yum). since I didn't make this I have NO idea what the calories are going to be.  I dont feel like i can ask her to calculate it either.  so my plan is to eat small servings and hope for the best. 

i weighed myself today.  :( but i was done a pound from yesterday! :)  i know i said i wasn't going to but when i talked to my hubby about it (he weighs every day like i do) he said he would just weigh on his running days so he could write it down in the log book.  so that is what i am going to do too! i only run 3 times a week and that will still be much better than me weighing every day! 

Day One of Recommitment

Well the day I have been waiting for (or dreading depending on the moment) has finally come. Yes, its Valentines Day and all of those goals that I listed below started today. The biggest and most scary goal, was starting P90X (but I was still excited)!

I woke up this morning, energized and promising to make good choices. I was a bit stuffy, but thought it would ride itself out (it didn't), but here is a list of what I turned down today...
-- chocolate chips cookies (nurses last day gave guilt trip), sugar cookies with frosting, brownies with    chocolate frosting, brownie bites, doughnuts and doughnut holes, and taco dip!
-- lunch was catered today, the sandwiches appeared safe (just ham and cheese) but I decided I didnt want them because I didnt know the calories for sure, so I ate a HC meal instead

Unfortunately as the day went on, I got sicker and sicker. Valentine's Day is less than romantic around here with me sneezing, coughing, etc. After I spike a fever or >101 I decided that P90X would have to wait a bit.

I am sooo mad. I never get sick ... and yes even though I know it makes no sense, part of me feels like a failure. Part of me feels that if I cannot do what I promise, then I should pick a new date and start over. Unfortunately, that would result in bad eating for the days until then. Yes part of me realizes that all or nothing is not the way to go here. And yet, the other part of me does not want to throw todays good day and good choices away.

Is is possible... am I getting my head on straight? Its not all or nothing, its about making good choices! And just because I am sick and cant do P90X does NOT give me a license to eat whatever I want. Thinking THAT is unhealthy!

So thanks to you guys (and your increased accountability knowing that you were looking for my contributions) I am officially back ...

My weigh in this morning was 252.6 (down a couple from last week, but still up from prior to January).
Oh and PS. I love you all so much!!

Day 6? Recap, Weigh In

Weight's the same 206.6. I've done really well with food, even at my Valentine's lunch today. I wanted to order a burger really badly, but I got some tilapia instead and it was extremely delicious. I drank water, and had one cupcake for dessert. Yay me. I also did my Shed today, and I rollerbladed, and I ran!! And now I'm exhausted.
I am going to have to go back to the 3 lb weights for a while though. I literally couldn't move my arms by the end of the workout this morning. I just don't think I'm ready for 5 lbs. I'm a wuss.

weigh in day

when we started last week, i was at 204/202.  204 was the day meredith emailed me and i had had chinese buffet the day before.  so i was very much in need of something.  202 was the first day after i counted my calories.  so i'm going with it as my starting weight since the 204 was probably just undigested buffet.

i was down to 198.4 today. i thought that was pretty good considering i have been over my calories the past three days.

yesterday i was overy by 150 cals. today i will be over again :(  j and i went to a local mexican restuarant for valentines day. i had chips/queso and a fajita quesadilla.  i plugged it in to my fitness pal using another restuarants calories for the same meal. i'm sure they are a little differnt but figurd they are close enough.

since i'm already over, tonights dinner will consist of oatmeal again.  i like it bc its low cal but makes me feel full.

i'm also going to start trying to NOT weigh every day. Maybe every other for starters and cut back from there.  I do get obsessed with the number so hopefully backing off will keep me more sane!

Yes!!!!

My scale is really stupid.  When I first started my journey I weighed more than the scale went up to, and I had to guess.  And the lines are really small and hard to read.  So I thought my starting weight was 272.  Ugh.   But it really might have been 275.  But... either way, a MINIMUM weight loss of 4 pounds since Tuesday when we all started this chapter is pretty freakin' awesome!!  I am so excited!

Jen, thank you so much for mentioning MFP.  I really, really love it.  It is SO easy.  AND I found AnnMarie again!!!  Yay!!

So right now, our house has been hit with the plague.  Jonathan has a cold, I have a bad cold starting, Stephen has a fever, and according to him, this is the "worstest Valentine's Day ever."

So-- another victory to complete the day yesterday?  Sure.
I did NOT eat before I left for rehearsal, and you know what?  I did NOT die of hunger.  I was fine.

But, on my way home I was pretty hungry, so I called my husband to look up calories of things on MFP, but he couldn't figure it out, so I got a nutrition sheet from McDonalds and ended up with a small fry and an angus snack wrap (that was SUPPOSED to be PICKLE-FREE but wasn't. grr.).  And then I still had calories left over, and didn't go over in any of my categories.  (I dont think, anyway!)

A day that had pizza AND mcdonalds, and I was still under my calories.

Awwww yeah.
:)

So the working out is definitely taking a back seat since my chest feels like it has mold in it and my head is perpetually fuzzy.  It is what it is.

I really hope that I start feeling better soon because the weather is supposed to warm up this week!!

Saturday

Well yesterday didn't go so well in the calorie counting department either.  I did good for lunch, then grazed in the hospitality room during the day, and we went to gatti town to celebrate after the meet.  could have only had 3 pieces to stay under my intake but it was more like 5-6.  :(   on a good note i weighed myself this mornign and actually wasn't up after 2 bad days.  wonder what it woudl have been if i had actually been at the calories i needed?

do you all weigh every day or just on mondays? i weigh every day. usually more than once bc our scale willnot give you the same number if you do it back to back.  i do it until i get the same number twice and go with that. 

today we went to ocharleys for lunch. i counted and tracked all my foods.  i have about 200 cals left for dinner tonight but told j i was going to eat oatmeal.  that'll put me about 40 over but that's much better than the hundreds i've been over the past 2 days.

ACK.

Yikes Jen....
Alright....  here we go, a guilt post in the three minutes I have before I have to leave for rehearsal.
What a day. We got home from church at 3, and I frantically did Valentines cards with Stephen for school and daycare tomorrow.

Okay.. yesterday we had an unplanned trip to a public supper, so I had used a lot more calories than I would have at lunch time.  And I knowingly did NOT pass up the dessert table --  there was hardly any soup left, so I made that choice.   I tracked everything.  Ouch.  But I did it.  It was still under my BMR, so I am feeling okay.

Today is going pretty well. We did pizza hut for lunch, and I had a salad bar, and one and a half pieces of pizza.  When I came home and tracked, I realized that I totally could have had another piece.  But... you know what?  I didn't need it!!!
 That was a victory!

Okay.. I seriously need to go.
And just for the record, taskmaster Jen, you guys WERE holding me accountable... even if I didn't have time to post about it....  :)  I didn't hide my tracker, and I didn't NOT track, and I ..... um...
yeah.
All progress.
:)

Weigh in tomorrow!
Woot!